Decision to make!

Feeling shit right now. Lost to Alibaba in the first round of Lance Pennall this morning. No excuse, I played SHIT! On the upside, at least I won a frame. This is the 6th time I play in the Classic, in the previous 5 times, I lost 3-0 first round ( George Spiteri, Mathew Bolton, M.Kagan, KY and Dallas Hersell) in each occasions. Why I drop in form? Maybe too much poker in the last few years. Maybe not much motivation in snooker. Not much practice. Just don't enjoy as much as I used to (but I still love the game). I didn't feel excited this morning, especially after I knew they put me on a crap table (quite slow), and nothing went right from the beginning. Maybe I don't have the right mindset. It is so FUCKSTRATING!

Now I am thinking, should I just play snooker socially and don't care the result anymore? No more tournament, no more donations, just pennants once a week. Or should I give it a last shot? Used to practice 10 hours solo every week, and match play or pennant every second day. In reality, I know I can't win any tournament in Australia. Being a lucktard in snooker can only win you a couple of frames. During my best years, I had a reputation being a very solid player. I was proud of my achievements and respects my oppositions gave me. Now I feel that I am a failure. Big decision to make!